Time check. It’s 26 minutes after 1 AM. I still have a work later cause apparently, it is still not a Friday night. But I still decided to pull out my laptop and now I am gonna start telling you stories you didn’t even asked to hear in the first place.

As I walked home this evening, I decided to pass by Bonifacio High Street. I don’t usually take this route cause I think it would take me longer to get home or I’m just bad at calculating the distance. Anyway, I was recording my feet while walking and was surprised to see some petals of white roses scattered. At first I thought they were just leaves falling from the tree but then I realized they were perfectly sprinkled at the sides of the stairs I was stepping on to. It looked like something you see during weddings and proposals where the lady walks down the aisle, eyes filled with tears of joy, and covering her mouth with both hands to look cute. You know what I mean. So I looked around and saw candles which I believed was formed into a heart shape and there were some video cameras being set up. I knew it. Someone was proposing in public. I stayed for a while. Thought I’d be an additional audience but when I looked back at the petals on the ground, the utility guy was already sweeping them off. So I thought the proposal has ended. I just hope she said “YES”.

I continued to walk my way home and reminisce the times when I wished someone would ask me to marry him one day and surprise me like that in public. I realized that I no longer want that, although I know my current boyfriend is capable of doing that. I bet he’d rent a whole cinema or take me on a helicopter ride. Or whatever crazy idea that he thinks is fancy. AJ, if you are reading this, I forbid you to do that. I am over those years. Long before we started dating, my fairytale dreams have changed. I have come to appreciate the simpler life. The more I get older, the more chill and private I want my life to be. I like intimate weddings, small gatherings, being surrounded by nature, and just staying at home most of the time.

Honestly, I don’t have that big circle of friends. I have a few close friends and I like it that way. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am not a snob and in situations where I am surrounded by strangers, I am usually the one who would approach people first. I don’t really go out of the house very often, even when I was still in Cebu. You barely see me to the point that our neighbors would ask my mother if I am still living in our house or have I moved out already. Some people might think I’m dead already. I don’t go to bars and clubs. And most of all, I don’t drink and smoke cigar. You think I am a party-goer because I live in the middle of the city where night clubs are just four cartwheels away. Look, I wouldn’t even show up when our neighbor living next to our house invites me over on occasions. Do I sound like a wet-blanket now? Well, in my defense, I am not comfortable eating at somebody else’s place because one, it would take me at least an hour to finish my meal; and two, I am too lazy to mingle with people. I know it’s not a good thing for some of you, but in our family, we don’t normally eat together. I always prefer to eat alone. And that’s never been a problem with my parents. The most valid reason I can give you is that I don’t eat on time. Also, when I don’t feel like eating yet, nobody can force me. I like to do things in my own time. Okay, let’s just stop talking about food. My stomach is growling. I wonder why when I was so full at dinner.

Where were we? Oh, I watched a movie prior to writing this. I found “Falling Inn Love” at Netflix. Turns out it was the one I have waited. Seen the trailer of it a couple of times maybe months ago. Remember how I kept saying in my previous posts that I’ve been looking for films similar to Letters to Juliet and Under the Tuscan Sun? Well guess what, the storyline of this movie is a combination of the two aforementioned films. It is about a career woman, probably my age, who lost her job and her boyfriend in a span of one week. She was devastated and during her misery, she stumbled upon this email where she won an “Inn” at a countryside in New Zealand. She then fell in love with a man who help her rebuild the inn, which by the way happens to be a scam. It was like ordering an item from an online shop. You expect the exact item to arrive only to disappoint you to the superlative degree you could ever imagine. I wouldn’t go into so much details so you would watch it, too.

The more I watch films with beautiful countryside setting, the more I want to move away from the city. I could be working in a flower shop there or in a café waiting tables. I could be an editor on a local newspaper where I just write anything under the sun. I could be an event coordinator, as what I have always dreamt of. I’d be greeting my neighbors good morning and we see each other in church on Sundays. In this life, I know how to ride a bike with a basket at the front full with fresh flowers I picked from my garden. I have a vintage van painted in a dusty blue color with white accents. Or a pink vespa that I ride going to my boutique at the small town where I sell cheap cute clothings and accessories and some decors I have personally made. I would cook delicious meals and go to farmer’s market on Saturdays. I would have a dog that I gifted to AJ but stays with me so he can use the dog as a reason to visit me more often. He also has to come by everyday because I can’t feed the dog. FYI, I have a doraphobia (kindly refer to google for an brief description). I don’t know why we’re still not married and living together at this point. But anyway, this is my dream life. Might change after a few years. Hopefully not.

Time check once again. it’4 minutes after 3. Expect me to wake up at around noon time. I’ll hit the sack now before the sun rises.

August has come. With that, I have another content for today. This is different from the ones I usually post. I am fond of watching monthly favorites on YouTube and since I do not have a channel, I’ll post it here instead. Here are my July favorites.

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Could anyone ever believe we’re only a few months away from flipping another page of the calendar for a whole new year? That’s right, in 3 days it will be August already. So here’s a new blog to make up for the months I was missing in action. I’ve been caught up with a lot of things lately. Of course, that includes laziness. Anyhow, here are some of the lessons I learned as I go on adulting.

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2019 has come! In four months time, I’m turning a year older. It kinda makes me sad because I feel like I haven’t achieved something significant yet, but at the same time, I’m also thankful to the Lord for adding up another year in my life.

It’s past 2am and here I am, blogging. Actually, I just had my dinner. I know it’s not good but I wasn’t hungry earlier because of the milk tea I have intaken this afternoon. I had a date with AJ before he flies back to Manila later this morning. We’re back to LDR again, but I’m gonna see him soon. I am very happy he stayed in Cebu for almost 3 weeks. I wanted to accompany him going to the airport later but his flight is too early. He has to leave by dawn.

Anyhoodle, I would like to share some of my 2018 highlights.

January. Started my year by traveling to Manila for work and a little vacation.

February. Finally got to tick Bantayan Island off my bucket list. Celebrated Valentine’s Day the LDR way. Got to play badminton again after so many years.

March. Spent quality time with my former teammates. Not much happening this month though.

April. My birth month. The boyfriend tried to surprise me. Well, it was such a fail because his sister told me he’s coming home. She didn’t know it was supposed to be a surprise. Also, I was confined in the hospital for being so overfatigued and I fainted in one of the malls in Cebu. Yep, that was very unforgettable. Please don’t remind me about it in the future.

May. I had my first international travel with AJ’s family to Singapore. Celebrated his birthday in another country.

June.  After 4 years and 2 months, I resigned from my first job. The day after my last day of work, I brought mama to Manila for the first time. She enjoyed so much that she didn’t want to go back to Cebu, lol. This was also the month I started my online business of selling clothes.

July. One of my bestfriends invited me for book shopping when Big Bad Wolf came to Cebu. Attended my college classmate’s wedding and was one of the bridesmaids.

August. I flew to Manila for the third time this year. Stayed there for almost a month. I went to the gym for the first (and last) time with AJ’s officemate who turned out to be my friend instantly. I was about to look for a job there when my family had an emergency and I was the only rescue, so I had to fly back home immediately. Started a new job at a construction site as my father’s secretary/assistant.

September. Celebrated our third anniversary. AJ’s second attempt to surprise me. This time it was a total success.

October. Quick vacation to Negros for my cousin’s wedding and had to rush myself into the doctor’s clinic because of the unusual rashes appearing all over my body. Glad I’m still alive until now. Flew to Malaysia on the last day of the month.

November. Tricity trip (Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand) with my former colleagues. Spent Christmas a little way too early with my girl friends. We renovated some part of our house, including my room.

December. Went to Sirao Flower Farm with my relatives. Shopped for gifts. Dinner with some of my closest friends from work back then. Spent the actual Christmas lying on bed all day.

That’s it. I guess to basically sum up my 2018, it was more on travels and quality time with my family and friends. Whatever it went, I am beyond grateful I survived the year despite my shortcomings. This 2019, I am claiming it’s my year. Well, seems like everybody wishes the same. May the odds be ever in our favor, folks.

Wonder where on earth have I been? Well, I was missing in action for quite some time, a lot of changes happened in my life, including the major ones. Let me start by dropping your jaw that I am now jobless. Yes, you’ve read that right. After a very in-depth thinking, receiving too many advices from my friends, asking signs from God, and desperate prayers, I finally decided to let go of my corporate job. I am not the type of person who leave people hanging, wondering what really happened and sugarcoating things when it comes to life. As what my ex-coworkers said about me on my last day of work, I am straightforward. I say what I want to say and I don’t care if I am being judged. After all, whatever you do, people who hate you will always have something to say.

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Are you kiddin’ me? It’s February already. Where did the time go? It’s only two days before people go all cheesy and romantic and everywhere is red. Why do I sound so bitter? Lol. Alright, LDR sucks which means I do not have a date on Valentine’s Day. I mean, that’s totally fine but still, it’s so sad to think we’re gonna spend the occasion apart. Anyways, not much happening today. I came late at church this morning because I woke up late, then I watched Netflix the whole afternoon. Sundays are so perfect for my movie marathon. For the longest time, I have listed Breakfast at Tiffany’s in my to-watch movies. Well guess what, I just saw it today. I thought it was a series. The movie was long and l love the setting. You know, very vintage and classy. Those are one of my types. My favorite one is Letters to Juliet. Ugh! I can watch it all over again and again. I have always been an old-school. Whenever I watch classic movies, I feel like I’m starred in the movie, too. Okay maybe not the protagonist, but I think I could pass as an extra. I remember how I wanted to be an actress or a model when I was a little girl. I live nearby ABS-CBN studio and their van would always pass by the road. I would wave at the tinted glass windows while the other hand is on the waist, posing and smiling. How desperate I was to hope they would discover me. Lol. Now that I’m getting older and no agency has contacted me yet, I could only dream of being a part of a movie where I could dress like the old times. I like medieval outfits. They look so inconvenient to wear, but whatevs, I want them. I think I was born the wrong year.

Yeah, back to Breakfast at Tiffany’s. I know Audrey Hepburn by the name and I don’t understand why she is iconic. But after I saw the movie, I must say, she really is. I never thought she is such a beauty. All photos that I’ve seen of her is wearing sunglasses and a hat. She’s yet the only woman I have seen looking so extra and minimalist at the same time. Very elegant. I adore her style.

Also, I watched Wild Child last night. I’ve had too much chick flicks in my life. Actually, I go for random movies. Sometimes I find myself watching a very boring one but I still finish it. The only movies that don’t interest me at all are Sci-Fi. Yeah, I could watch it when I have no choice but it’s never gonna be on my list. Same with books, I don’t like Fantasies. I tried reading Twilight long time ago but I stopped it before I was even half way. I don’t have anything against unrealistic movies and books but I just don’t find them fascinating at all.

It’s now already 2 AM now. How I hate Mondays! They make my life miserable. I still want to watch Friends. Y’know, I couldn’t count on how many times I have watched this series. Never gets old. Always amuses me. I think I should also go back to reading. I miss my old hobby.

This might be too early for a year-ender post since we still have a month left before we welcome another start of the year. But who says we should only be thankful once December comes to an end? Anyway, today is Thanksgiving Day and I would like to share with you the three major things I am thankful for this year.

1. Blood is thicker than water. This is personal but I am finally sharing this to the public. My brother and father did not have a good relationship for years. Something happened. I don’t want to tell any further but it broke our family apart. We live in the same house together but I could not call it “home”. There’s only the four of us but I still felt alone. It was very hard for me to be the mediator in the family. I felt like I could explode at any time. But recently, I found out that they were talking again. Maybe not as close as they were before. But at least, the pride of both parties has slowly fade away. Time heals the wounds, indeed. God finally answered my desperate prayers just before I totally lose hope.
2. My hardworks have paid off. When I started working in my current project, I usually come home late. We are not forced to render overtime, but I am just not productive on daytime. So I always overwork at night. My work is very technical for me, considering I am an HRM graduate. But I survived. Thank God.Came June where I decided to leave my job. But I kept hanging on in hopes that I might be promoted by December. By any chance, a teammate of mine gets to read this post, well, I am just being straightforward here. I am financing the studies of my brother who is a college student. The tuition fee plus allowance is no joke. I had to find another opportunity that pays me higher. But then last week, I received the news I’ve been waiting to hear for months. I got promoted! When my manager announced it to me, I almost did not know how to react. After that, I went straight to the ladies room and repeatedly saying, THANK YOU, LORD! I wanted to scream and hug someone but I preferred to feel the moment alone. This is a sign for me to stay. Promoted twice in less than four years isn’t bad after all. I am beyond grateful.
3. My brother is back to school. For all of you wondering, he is my kuya. A year older than me. He stopped studying I think four years ago. We thought he’d only rest for a while like a semester or a year. But laziness had eaten him alive. He is a freelance computer technician, so he doesn’t ask money from us. We have convinced him a million times to continue college but he wouldn’t. I know my parents wanted us to finish college since they only have two children, but this guy is just hard as rock. Until one time this year, my boyfriend talked to him. AJ knows how willing I am to sacrifice just to support financially on my brother’s education. I don’t know what have gotten into him but he decided to resume his studies. May it be AJ’s convincing power or my brother’s own realization. I don’t care. Even if all of my salary goes to his school fees, I wouldn’t mind. I would not ask anything in return. I am just happy to support him and it melts my heart knowing mama is excited to see him in a black toga.

How about you? What are the things that you are most thankful for? 🙂